My life in you Restored.

Have not been blogging for months and i'm on track now after a roller coaster ride. Well it does seem that those months had past as if i am taking a roller coaster ride. My life is full of excitement. Ups and Downs, happy and sad but i'm returning to the very starting point taking another ride again. Brand new of experiences waiting for me!

Well, i am so happy that my aunt from Penang came! She is here for work not for holidays but it seem like a holiday to me cos until now i have been accompanying her every moment very minute bringing her around shopping and eating! And only two days past! we have like gone to quite a few places and have eaten lots of yummy and delicious food! think i'm gotta grow fat during her stay in Singapore!

So tml after her work i will be joining her. hahas and she actually called me to stay with her at the hotel! my goodness. who will ever stay in Singapore's hotel where you are living here. lol! perhaps maybe when you elope or you leave the house. hahas. but ya. its quite cool i think.can use the gym and stuff. just shiok then after that i'll go to school..hahahs. and she will go to work at OCBC. okays..cut the crap and i'm tired now..after a long day shopping at orchard ion with her. well. look forward for tml.

Tomorrow will be great..i foresee. :D

Thank God for the "anonymous holiday" for me? for her? hahahs. leave it for you to decide. lol

Okay its time to relax. And thank God for the gift!

Pack pack pack. Bintan here i come! :D

Somehow, i think that some of the application in Facebook are true to a certain extent. One of it i seriously recommend is ' See God wants you to know ' application. Somehow the words that it says ministered to me a lot a lot....

Recently, i am really unmotivated in doing my MP as i felt i have no goals for it. i can't see what is the end product that i must achieve. i am totally clueless, totally bewildered, totally lost and is like i am falling in a big big maze. However, thats not the only reason. My team has decreased to 2 person from the previous 4. The dynamics of the group really been affected..

I questioned and asked God whats now, whats next and i have got no answer..i am still in the same piece of land. Everyday i went to school and i find it meaningless cos i am still sourcing for what i need to achieve for the project as it is a major project just like what the name says..its a MAJOR one. i need to do exceptionally well for it! However,  there is still no answer, no forward improvements nor a backslide the project is hanging in the mid air. Everything is like in a mess. everything is unsure, uncertain to me...

It was at that moment i saw the light. The moment i clicked the application and allow access to it. It has been long since i last clicked that application. Its just at that moment i got a sudden urge to wanna know what God wants me to know and yesh i found the answer and was really assured by his grace!  Thank You God! And then my day turned out to be right.

It says: All is well. All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should.

It is just a simple sentence and each word really ministered to the bottom of my heart. Then i was reminded by one of my QT i did few days ago and it says be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

Now, i am definitely more motivated in continuing the status of the project scope. Yesterday, after meeting with our MP supervisor, finally i saw the goal and ultimately what the team need to achieve. And i think its all according to the perfect plans of God. And i trust and believe that God will continue to lead us even the team left with only 2 members to do the Major Project.

Again, God is building my faith. we cannot see the end results of the things we are doing now. We need to trust, hand over, and believe that he will make everything smooth and right for us. Our God is faithful, he will never guide his child to the wrong path or wants him to suffer. Always trust that HE has his own and best plan for us! :D

From today onwards, i must have more sense of urgency and be more sincere in everything i do. i cant be wishy washy anymore. Nobody bothers what reasons you have because we are no longer a kid anymore, we have grown up turning into a young adult. we must learn to be responsible in handling situations. Its hard now for people to keep giving you chances. when we are young our parents, grandparents, relatives, teacher, friends..all will give you chances even the biggest mistake you make at home or in school, our parents and teacher will forgive us, give us another chance and remind us not to do it again.

Now, everything does not goes the way it is, as you step into the 20s becoming a young adult, what you have done is done. people will respect you if you do it correctly and people will despise you if you make the wrong choice or do the wrong thing. Out in the society, everything must be flawless and everyone seek perfection. In banks, if you are an accountant and you have counted the amount of cash wrongly, your job will be at stake. In hospital, if you are a doctor and you have made wrong analysis for your patient, your job will be at stake. so once again, in the real world, who will give you second chance? if you have counted the amount wrongly, the head might said you are not professional enough to do this job and sack you. if you have make wrong analysis for your patient and your patient life is at stake you must be responsible of your doing. Nobody is to give you second chance, will the patient ask for a second life? perhaps, you might go jail if you really caused someone to suffer physically.

We are not perfect only God is. But still, in all things we do we must be mindful of the consequences.

A rather memorable day i had today. It seem like a farewell party for all the year 3s. hahahs.Like so emo but yeah i have enjoyed it. And this is really the first time dedicating a song item for my dearest lecturers. So it turn out great i think. :D I have to said that i have a lot of fun rehearsing with my fellow partners too.

This is my fellow partners who sang with me :D cool people really rock the house yeah! :D

I thank God for the day. :D

Be prepared for more. what's the more? i questioned myself.

i knew the answer but i want it to be presented more clearly.

God says, be still and know that i am God.

yesh.

i shall rely onto this for the month to come.

Sitting on the sofa dazing and stoning.. this should not be what i should be doing now. but i have no energy to start on my work. so hesitantly and with no motivation,  then with heavy footsteps, i walk and sat in front of my new lappy forcing myself to start progressing on my work.

This should not be what i should be doing now. where is my eager in doing projects and assignment. it seem like i have lost it. NONO. i must let the fire to keep burning cos this is th;e final round, the last lap, the last project i should buy more kerosene to let the fire burn! oh lord provide me with the kerosene. i really need your kerosene! :)

As the week passed..so fast..my dateline is soon becoming nearer and nearer..

but learn to be still..

Thank God that there is no rain today and finally the tennis match can start on time. :D

its the last second day of the validation exercise.. i think i will miss the place and the people that i work with!! i did learn a lot of things this week and i really had enjoyed my week! :D ahh i will really miss everyone. so tml i shall treasure every moment till we meet again in August where its the real YOG! :D